Now i know i don’t look the type of girl but i am an absolute sucker for a cheesy romantic film! the last one i watched was the typical girl falls in love with boy they go off to college and they have to work life and everything out, part of the film the girl was filling out a college form and there was a question that was ‘where do you see yourself in five years?’ and it got me thinking where do i see myself in five years well for one i’ll have a 14 year old and a 10 year old (which i’m totally not ok with at all!!!!) i’ll be 36 (which i’m also not ok with!!) and the one thing i could think of was in 5 years i’d simply like for all 3 of us to be happy.
Now i know its typical obvious and easy answer for us to be happy but its true the past few years the three of us have gone threw so many things and so much has changed in my kids and my life that i worry that they might not be happy with it all. Some things were completely out of control some of it was my decision but anything i’ve ever done has always been with my kids best interests first over my own! I hope in five years there doing great in school and become decent teenagers and don’t turn out to be right knobheads like some of the youth today and i hope they make better decisions in life than i did with some things and i hope they know i will be there for them always.
Its inevitable that even tho i don’t want to i’ll loose family members but i pray that nothing bad happens to any of them ever and i hope there’s loads of amazing things planned to happen for us all out there in the universe and fate will bring good things.
I’d like to think i’m a strong independent woman who don’t need no man but i can’t lie i bloody miss feeling wanted i miss morning texts and having someone want to know how my day went and being bear hugged whilst sleeping there’s nothing better than falling asleep in someones arms and feeling happy and content with everything in life, right now when i fall asleep i have a five year old telling me her life story and wanting to know the secrets of the universe and then when she does fall asleep its usually holding my hand or a boob which isn’t the same :’) so in five years i hope i’m happy for myself and i’ve found someone who think’s i’m the absolute dogs bollocks who bear hugs me in bed who sends me cute texts and who makes me smile all the time and makes me feel like i matter when they look at you and make your tummy feel funny with butterflies and make you smile like a tit at your phone.
In five years i’m hoping i’ve managed to get my anxiety under control and have some sort of normal life where i can take my kids out and do things with them as well as things for myself and not have the fear and panic all the time and that i can actually get on a bus and go to primark and spend a small fortune on a load of useless shit we don’t really need but i’m still gonna buy anyways.
I’m hoping in five years i’ve still got the amazing little group of friends i have now because i would be completely lost without them all and i love them more like family.
Non of us have a bloody clue what the universe holds for any of us in five years but i really do hope we all get something good at least once and that if karma needs to help out a little then it does.
the moral of the story is all i ever really want in life is for my kids, my family, my friends and myself to be happy life is so god damn short for us to constantly think of the what ifs and if i’d have done this or that would it be different life is what we make it so lets make our short times on this crazy world a good memorable one!!
I’d love to hear what you all see for yourselves in five years too!
post is a short but sweet one just what i felt like writing about
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Fat Bird Thinking 
I’m gonna try read your blog, I’ve just started blogging too so maybe we can support each others ^_^
I’ll be 36 in 5 years too. I think I’d like to see myself married, more settled in that regard, and to have a more definite idea as to whether or not I want children. I’d always thought I was a definite no to kids but over just the past few weeks I’ve started to feeling a little more ‘maybe’. I think it’s due to a few things reminding me of the finite-ness of life. Bit morbid and deep maybe but yeah.
I’d like to have done more travelling, still shooting awesome weddings but having lots of time to do other things too and maybe have some more success with my art stuff.
I’d love to have the important things, the best of health and happiness for me and those close to me obviously. I’d like to have better friend connections round where I live too.
I spose this is more stuff I’d *like* over the next 5 years rather than where I actually see myself, but I guess having these ‘goals’ has gotta help them be the reality too.
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